so little town gym

Well it was only open 4 hours yesterday and this place shuts down on sundays. i work tonight or id go do some stair work. i ordered the brazil butt lift since my plastic surgeon's RN recommended it. it has great reviews on amazon, hope i can stick to it, its meant to be like p90x. i also saw that jillian michaels is coming out with shred it w/weights. i also read on Hungry Girl facebook posts replies the number of calories people are eating and how they are tracking them, pretty interesting stuff. well since i work and the gym is closed i decided cleaning my downstairs is a great way to burn some calories today! im trying to figure out how to count my calories while working on night shift, looking forward to my kids starting school again so i can sleep better while they are at school!

Well CRAP!!!

Here we are knocking on August's door, the EIGHTH month of the year and my ass is still FAT! how the hell did that happen? Well i mean i have all the excuses but whatever such is life and my fat butt needs to shed 40 lbs! damn wasn't it only 20 when i started this blog? ugh my life of dieting and exercise it just never ends!!! well for those who follow my blog but not in my everyday life, I finished school and moved from CA to TX (this little itty bitty town) to get a new grad nursing job. I finished orientation this week and will go on the floor on thursday! yay me, let the stress begin. now itty bitty town has itty bitty i mean itty bitty gyms too. but all is good they have spin, kickboxing, and zumba so sign me up!!! Monday I will join a gym and i roughly started counting calories and have been making trips around the local lake where everyone goes to do everything!!! well its close to midnight and i am setting my alarm for 5am with a goal of 530 walking with oh ya one of my two dogs that i also got before my move!!! Well it's off to lose some more weight, tone some muscles and get some new clothes!

so yes blogging is like dieting

you start out right and it fizzles away. i really need to start a Mission National Guard and keep reminding myself that it's worth up to $45k and my clock ticking towards retirement.....now I did just run the Rock and Roll Half marathon without training for it, I finished in 2:40 with two bathroom breaks and alot of walking. So as I limp around wondering why my right foot hurts so much I better start refocusing on my caloric intake. So of course that means logging my food, we shall see how that goes today! Along with that i get to clean my house! yay

Working out w/purple and black team at the Y!

I had realized along time ago in my life that I assume different "roles" in different groups of my friends ie in the navy i was always the fat person but in my group of friends I was either average or a smaller person. And in these different situations I acted different about exercise or eating. So currently I am doubled up in the YMCA team challenge. I have Ed Camarillo as my trainer for both teams. It is also at two different gyms, Purple is rocking Toby Wells and Black is rocking it at Mission Valley. So as I sit here this morning thinking what an amazing time I had at yesterday's workout, I realized how completely different my teams are. Purple team is quiet and we get our work done, it is hard yes, but we sweat through it. Black team, I think I could train all day with them, between hearing mother fer and giggles from the married couple, i am pulling or pushing my body and weights watching the sweat drip off me with a smile! Last night we did crab crawls, wheelbarrows, sprints, and one team member had to piggyback our trainer. We all have our areas of strengths and weaknesses and we are pulling together nicely and supporting each other! What I am happy about most is now I have a total of 7 people to look for in the gym when I go, and I know that helps keep me accountable to the workouts I should be getting. I guys todays point is, exercise can be fun while grueling, and fun workouts make it seem like your having fun not exercising, and since I have kids it shows me things I can be doing to keep them healthy! I can't wait to see how much I get my ass handed to me tonight in Jason's bootcamp! I am partnering up with a black team member for the hell LOL! She is way funny, so hopefully I can have some laughs while trying to catch my breath!

I am BACK!!!

My poor forgotten blog, I am back!!! My topic choice today is choices!!! As I sat here Tuesday having a pity party for myself because I didn't get an interview for the VA's new grad program I told myself to get on here and blog yet I didn't. Anyhow my topic, choices! I don't have a choice in who gets an interview, how many people Sharp hires, if my husband has a bad day, if the President sends more troops to foreign lands. BUT I do have a choice in what I eat, how I cook my food, how hard I hit the gym. It is my choice to control this weight problem I have. No one else makes this choice! It is the ONE thing I do have control over in my life!!! If i plan accordingly my chooses can help me, but that is another I must do is choose to plan!

No Excuses!!!

As I said to a friend this week, your still overweight because you make too many excuses! Well guess what so do I! Me losing weight is more important than the fact someone made gyoza, or tried a new recipe out, or made a yummy cake. Not hitting the gym because once again I decided to procrastinate on my homework. This is the easiest time I am going to have from here on out to work out. When I finally get a nursing a job the hours will be killer! So I had already decided to give up eating out (my trainer said this includes potlucks) and I need to give up soda too, I always think well its diet...but still I am going to give it up, so hello crystal light! So very embarrassing today, our trainer had us weigh in, I gained weight, yet my other two team members lost :( I have read books, taking nutrition classes, saw a nutrionist, worked out with about 5 trainers now, why the heck can I not doing the simpliest math, calories in need to only be soooo much and calories out need to be so much. its pretty freaking simple so why can I not get it right? You know I am not losing weight just to be vain, although that is one of my main reasons. But I want to go back in the navy as an officer, i want to be faster in the races I sign up for, and i need to keep my heart healthy!

oh gym how its a love hate relationship!

I need to love you but like to hate you!!! But oh the gym is so good for me, it improves my moods and helps my figure and my heart!!! Off to the gym I will go tonight, with goals of running every morning at 530 to the stop sign and back (about 2 miles)! The ball is in THREE weeks!!!