deja vu

ugh really once again i blew my eating plan!!! I am just not getting it! its pissing me off. but i continue to be a broken record so since i have a brunch sat and a dinner sunday i will be starting fresh on monday! i need to lose 25 lbs asap and work on 20 more after that!!!  sleep for me now though because tomorrow I run the Color Run which has 20,000 people running it in san diego tomorrow!!!

First day of November

And day 1 sucked!! I woke up today coughing up green ick. Then I went to talk and sound like a whispering frog! My kids are in heaven! I was pretty productive today though for being under The weather. Once the kids were in school I grabbed my friend Shelly and we headed to Target (which by the way doesn't price match the military exchange ads). After catching the great 50% Halloween clearance we headed downtown to the USO to sign up for the Santa Workshop at the Harley store, we were 74-77 out of the 100 accepted for our time slot. Pics will be posted dec 8th.
Thursday is early release for the kids so once they hit home and we loaned our car out to a friend tats moving Monday we ran errands. I delivered items that we starting to clear from our housetops other homes. Then I picked up my friend Audrey's daughter and off to Santee we went. Another target run, Costco, kohls, the bank, and gas station. All that time I'm trying to keep three kids together with a squeak of a voice I'm sure everyone found it humorous.

My night ended with going to Claimjumpers with another friend followed by hot tea at panders to soothe my aching throat in hopes of getting my voice back before I have to work. Oh and I shampooed half of my living room carpet hoping to burn off dinner! Well my bed and tooth fairy duties are calling my name! My baby lost another tooth today!

And to follow with the November tradition: today I'm grateful that both my husband and I are employed.

Halloween 2012

Todd and I love Halloween!!!! It is our favorite holiday. Runner up is Easter, Todd loves decorating eggs, then of course Christmas. Too bad Todd is out to sea, but the best news is he will be home the next THREE!!! Yes you heard me, SHORE duty is in our future! I'm super duper excited that we can have a complete family for 3 years!

I am getting sick, it started on my 4th shift Monday. I have that itchy throat, stuffy head thing going on. I hate how dehydrated sudafed makes me feel. I'm taking robitussin, coldezze, and drinking green tea for immunity. And what's worse, I'm not the only one sick, my MacBook I think is actually dead :( the screen is just white and there's a clicking noise :( boo!!!! I don't see any extra funds to replace it before we move so that stinks.

Tomorrow is a new month and I'm determined to lose 5 lbs in November. I am going to focus on eating paleo, tracking in MFP, and a gallon of water a day when I'm not working and 2L when I work. what's everyone's November goal?

Happy Halloween everyone!!!!

Crossfit update and weekend round up

Whew I have been a busy person! First off, I decided Crossfit wasn't the right decision for me. I was having a hard time getting the right form and getting anxious over being weak or super slower than everyone else.  I know that it was only MY issue, no one treated me different they actually cheered me on. I may try it again another time but I want to focus on getting my running endurance and speed back. Crossfit and Half marathons both take a lot of energy and I can't do both at the same time. I am at peace with my decision.

Saturday I did a zombie 5k that was an awesome "group on" deal, only $15. I thought this was the one that zombies chased you but I was wrong. It was a zombie run. Thankfully they had volunteers painting faces for the runners! Another super cool thing about this run, it was my friend, Noreen's first 5k!!!! She already picked Her first half marathon :) Here's how I looked prior to running.

The rest of my Saturday flew by. I had Berkley's girl scout investiture in the afternoon, so cute. Then I had my friend Sarah's wedding that evening. It ended been a cold night but we were only on the beach for the ceremony and the reception was indoors. It was awesome and I ate non paleo but enjoyed myself and I'm very happy for my friend's happiness!  Oh and I totally suck in the photo booth! I look drunk, high, or half asleep in most of the pics. So embarrassing, sigh.

Sunday I woke up late and ran into church. I really love my church and my soul needed some Newbreak in it. During coffee break I noticed another sub wife so I moved over to sit with her and there was a group of Hampton wives there! Score it is good to stick out these underways with each other. After church we had our FRG (family readiness group) Halloween party. The weather was not cooperating, but thankfully my prayers for no rain were answered. We had crafts, a pinata, lots of cookies and cupcakes (that I was able to avoid). I was in charge of the pinata! Fun times :) 

I was put on call Sunday night, which was another answered prayer. I was able to stay home and help finish up Berkley's ancestor project for school and be home with the kids. I also had dinner with another boat wife, and made smart choices! 

This day started out great with a commisary run to get some veggies to go along with all the chicken I will be cooking up this week. Hit the gym and burned some great calories, ran into a fellow nurse there too. Loving Chuze fitness, great gym with a great price! Then I did my little bit of co-leader duties for the Brownie troop. We headed to the local pumpkin patch and momma got to drive some 2nd grade brownies. Here is my sweet little girl wanting a HUGE pumpkin. 

I plan to start blogging more so here is to me eating right and hitting the gym :)

Great day!

Today was a great day! I actually logged all my food intake and made it to the gym! I did a 2 mile run and 20 mins on the elliptical. I burned a total of 600 calories and was happy with that. I ate paleo all day long and that makes me happy. I have chicken out for tomorrow's crock pot meal and bought some frozen veggies and pork chops today. I am ready for another good day! slowly but surely I will change me!

confessions

So I will start this off by saying I know I am a poor writer and probably have ADD as well so I ramble when I talk which works it way into how I write.

So I am struggling, extremely bad I can get through only ONE meal a day with whatever my weight loss plan is be it counting calories, eating paleo, etc. I have been doing this broken record thing over and over again for at least 2-4 weeks now. I was SOOOO close to being in the 180s again, which 180 is a huge milestone for me. That is what I weighed after having the twins and losing 100 lbs! I am not a leader, but a pretty good follower and I jump on the trend of whatever works best for everyone else but me. Instead of doing the work I think well so and so lost this much by eating clean, being vegan, WW, paleo, shakeology etc and I give up before I lose weight or try to make their plan work for me.

Right now I am in the overwhelmed where do I start mode, I have ran 13.1 miles nonstop before and I am afraid to run one mile!!! I AM going to get back on the wagon in my way, be it a walk run 1 min method, be it counting calories, whatever way works for ME! So tonight I will do some soul searching and found out what I want for me, how I am going to get to a better me for me and my family!!

i need to get better at this!

I need to update my blog more! I know I don't have a ton of followers but I guess the way to keep you all interested is to actually update you. Well I was successful on Whole30 (well i haven't went back to research the larabar but ya i did it) Then I had Berkley's bday and I don't know just lost it. I spun out of control and with the end of summer BBQs and this and that and the thought that tomorrow I will do better I just lost it. So today I am officially back at it! I am also challenging myself to drink a gallon of water. I became one of those people you see with their gallon of water, I have my cute Tervis cup filled with ice and keep refilling it with water.

Oh ya I was also sick, I had a headcold for like a week! Today was my first day back at Crossfit and it was great. I am very happy with my decision to join a box. But have found I need to wear poise pads, at 35 my bladder doesn't love me! All those darn kids I popped out!

Larabars are banned for awhile, I was too addicted to them. Literally addicted!!! If I saw it I had to eat it!