Failure

Lately I have been feeling down, there are many things that have contributed to it. There is the monthly PMS, missing my thursday night girls from back in the day, irregular sleep routine that comes with working nights, and the endless rain we had this weekend.

I glanced over to the wall that holds my race medals and bibs and questioned if that was now my history and not my future. Have I lost the drive and motivation to be a runner? Very depressing thought.

I just feel this deep sense of failure like I don’t finish anything. I am failing at logging my food intake into my fitness pal, failing at keeping my workout plans, failing at maintaining my 100 lb weight loss, failing at reaching my diet bet goal.

I know people have faith in me, but where is my faith? Sigh, I hope I can find it.  My friend Dee recommended starting a journal and each morning put my daily goal (s). I started today and hope to use this to aid myself in daily challenges and rewards.

the last 2 days...

of my diet bet game! I have seen the winning number on the scale this week! Today it is up but that is after 2 nights of work, I know I can hit that $$$ winning number by the time my weigh in pic is due Sunday! Means I might be missing Cinco de Mayo margaritas, booo!!!! The little bit of mexican I have in my might seep out of my blood with the lack of a margarita, I may have to give this thought :)

It has been raining buckets here in Southeast Georgia, much to my sadness! We were planning on visiting the shrimp fest and fencing our backyard so our new addition, Grady, can go outside more often! I will now be spending my weekend planning out half marathons for the rest of this year and next! Have a good one in your state that me and the hubs can run to mark off a state?

For now I will be educating myself on how to help mommy's breastfeed their baby! :) My online class has no deadlines, EEEKK not good for me!