No Excuses!!!

As I said to a friend this week, your still overweight because you make too many excuses! Well guess what so do I! Me losing weight is more important than the fact someone made gyoza, or tried a new recipe out, or made a yummy cake. Not hitting the gym because once again I decided to procrastinate on my homework. This is the easiest time I am going to have from here on out to work out. When I finally get a nursing a job the hours will be killer! So I had already decided to give up eating out (my trainer said this includes potlucks) and I need to give up soda too, I always think well its diet...but still I am going to give it up, so hello crystal light! So very embarrassing today, our trainer had us weigh in, I gained weight, yet my other two team members lost :( I have read books, taking nutrition classes, saw a nutrionist, worked out with about 5 trainers now, why the heck can I not doing the simpliest math, calories in need to only be soooo much and calories out need to be so much. its pretty freaking simple so why can I not get it right? You know I am not losing weight just to be vain, although that is one of my main reasons. But I want to go back in the navy as an officer, i want to be faster in the races I sign up for, and i need to keep my heart healthy!

oh gym how its a love hate relationship!

I need to love you but like to hate you!!! But oh the gym is so good for me, it improves my moods and helps my figure and my heart!!! Off to the gym I will go tonight, with goals of running every morning at 530 to the stop sign and back (about 2 miles)! The ball is in THREE weeks!!!

YMCA Team Challenge!!!

So I have seen this team challenge thing a couple times at the Y, it runs for six weeks and costs $275. I have spent money and more money on trying to lose weight and get fit. So sometimes it gets old, but since my motivation is lacking I thought what the hell! so i did it. It started last week, our first weigh in was thursday! I lost 2.2 lbs which i thought was good because i was in the ER sat night and they thought i had the flu so i didnt work out sat, sun, or mon!!! so i am back to wearing my bodybugg and actually calculating my calories AND measuring my food!!!! Like literally measuring out the 1/4 cup creamer in put in my coffee! So heres to the next 6 weeks i hope to lose 15 lbs by May 1st, the challenge goes till April 29th. Oh and for those that don't know I am not able to train for the RNR SD marathon :( I don't have anyone to take my son to sat school so i can train with my group... boohoo I decided to wait till hubby is home on shore duty to try to train for a marathon!

so sad :(

I usually don't get too upset or emotional over people I don't know passing. I don't know if it is because my kids are getting older and it hits home or because I have ran those trails. When you hear someone goes missing you hope for the best and fear for the worst. Now my only regret is that I didn't go out with a search party to say I did my part. My heart breaks when I think of Chelsea King, which I am sure would have grown into a wonderful, successful woman but all was cut too short because some criminal couldn't keep his hands to himself. I can not imagine the pain and hurt that all her friends and family are going through right now and the new fear that each person has when they go on a run. Running is to improve oneself it is is too lose weight, make your heart healthier, or to compete against others and these sick, horrible rapist/murderers have to make it become a nightmare. My heart goes out to all those that knew Chelsea.