so I am sick!!!

and what does that mean to weight loss! NONE boo!!! When I am sick I start eating, thinking well these warm soup will make me feel better, sniff sniff, ok I guess crackers will, cough cough, open the fridge and figure out what might make me feel better. I continue to do this tell I feel better, so boo!!! I was OP (on plan) tue, wed, thur, and friday and saturday just ate trying to feel better, well guess what it is Sunday and I am still SICK!! I decided enough is enough, got off my butt made coffee and oatmeal tracked it and have started drinking water! go me!!! I still think there will be a loss on the scale at WW tomorrow because I am recovering from T-Day at Jens followed by my visit to San Diego! Now the trick question, do I sign up for a different gym in Eagle Pass, start using the elliptical at my work after I get off, or just come home to my own treadmill and tons of DVDs I purchased that still are shrink wrapped!!!

what day is it????

my goodness, after 3 night shifts (2 i worked past 10am) im BEAT!!!! i can barely remember what day it is! my goal today is to avoid shoving tons of carbs down my mouth AND to track what I eat!!! So i actually know its Wed and I have actually had ONE full day of tracking EVERYTHING i ate and I avoided the pancit and ham given to me at work AND the tacos and muffins at todays meeting!! SUCESS!

running

hmmm why does running have to be a love/hate relationship, thanks to Becky i joined other runners in Eagle Pass to run in the 5th annual Jingle Bell 5k. It was pretty fun, we got a jingle bell bracelet and those light up necklaces like you are at a fair. It was a dark run and after like 5 mins i wanted to stop running, gosh how lazy!!! i kept thinking how the hell am I going to run a marathon. oh ya if i train it will be ok! we have some fast runners here. i am glad i did it and I am signing up for another one tomorrow for Saturday on the AFB. oh which they have a bod pod now!!! i need to check into it, how cool!!! mmm well off to drink some water, and just have to mention my daughter is watching Eclipse ohhhhhhh JACOB YUM!!! lol

San Diego visit Dec 4-8, 2010

OK so I came to see my husband off on his 4th westpac, man what are we going to do with each other when we actually live together all the time??? Anyhow, as many of my friends noticed my ass has expanded to the size of oh about Texas!!!!!! Now most of friends have either gained or just stopped losing and WE all need to lose from 20-50+ pounds. And we all tell each other let's start eating better tomorrow and supporting each other with a healthier lifestyle. Well I would really like to see if we could actually support each other. My goal is to be 20 lbs lighter when I see my friends again in June as well as my HOT husband, which I have a surprise for him when I see him which requires us both looking AMAZING!!! So for my running friends I recommend The NON Runner's Marathon Guide for Women by Dawn Dais. AND dont forget June 5th, 2011 Rock n Roll San Diego!!! oh and Lose It is the app we are using to cheer each other on as we battle this weight loss!!!

gearing up for my trip to San Diego

Well I leave tomorrow for a 4 day trip to San Diego and I am trying to remind myself that this does not mean eat everything I see/want and not to spend money like its made out of water, when i go on "vacations" for some reason i feel this means swipe swipe swipe. needless to say worrying about my finances also makes me wanna chow down. anyhow I am posting today to mention a book I am reading. Its called The NON runner's marathon guide for women. Yes I have finished FOUR half marathons but still have yet to refind my mojo, even after signing up for 3 rock n roll halfs in 2011. I am on page 60 so far and enjoying what i am reading.

New Beginnings

So i feel like a record player with my weight loss, i don't even think its a yo-yo effect, well I know it isn't because I am not going down to come back up. Overcoming obesity is just as hard as stopping cigarettes or alcohol or maybe EVEN worse. I mean we do have to eat. I am very sad when I step on the scale and see all the hard work I did since I had the twins in July 08 just going to waste. But is it enough to make sure I am making the smart choices about the foods and drinks I put in my mouth. NO!!!! So I am hoping that the light clicks on for me soon. Weight Watchers started a new program this week and has cute new binders that are pretty so maybe revamping and having a new honeymoon stage will help me! A close friend of mind recommended I set non weight loss goals as well. I have decided since I used to hit the gym ALL the time in San Diego that I need to tap back into working out. I have every Jillian Michaels DVD there is out I think. so i told myself that if i work out 5 times a week for one hour for a month I can treat myself to a massage.....what girl doesnt love a massage!!! so hopefully my fat butt will start to lose weight and i can start changing my lifestyle back to one I like. ESPECIALLY since I signed up for THREE half marathons in 2011!!!!

Back on WW wagon!!!

Why do i have a love/hate relationship with WW, why can't i be in that honeymoon stage again like after having Berkley when I went from 222 to 160 in 11 months????? Well i decided what I was doing or not doing since I left San Diego is obviously not working, so I decided back to WW. Sidenote LOVE the leader, which is I think what lead to the success I had in 2005. So as ashamed as I am I think posting my weight each week will help me open my eyes to my obesity problem I have! Now I know to some people I may not be obese and to others I am morbidly obese, but with that said my dad had a heart attack at 50 yrs old (thats so young!!!) and my mom was just diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, so I need to stay on top of my health to prevent the genetic downfalls from hitting me! so as of Monday Oct 11, 2010 my fat ass is weighing in at 202.8 in scrubs at a WW meeting! My goal weight is 160, i dont mind taking an entire year to get there so hopefully i keep it off!!! but mmm walking onto that pier next summer to great my hubby at 160 would be really nice, or eating a huge kangaroo burger at a great weight would be nice too. I love motivation of seeing my man again!!!