so yes blogging is like dieting

you start out right and it fizzles away. i really need to start a Mission National Guard and keep reminding myself that it's worth up to $45k and my clock ticking towards retirement.....now I did just run the Rock and Roll Half marathon without training for it, I finished in 2:40 with two bathroom breaks and alot of walking. So as I limp around wondering why my right foot hurts so much I better start refocusing on my caloric intake. So of course that means logging my food, we shall see how that goes today! Along with that i get to clean my house! yay

Working out w/purple and black team at the Y!

I had realized along time ago in my life that I assume different "roles" in different groups of my friends ie in the navy i was always the fat person but in my group of friends I was either average or a smaller person. And in these different situations I acted different about exercise or eating. So currently I am doubled up in the YMCA team challenge. I have Ed Camarillo as my trainer for both teams. It is also at two different gyms, Purple is rocking Toby Wells and Black is rocking it at Mission Valley. So as I sit here this morning thinking what an amazing time I had at yesterday's workout, I realized how completely different my teams are. Purple team is quiet and we get our work done, it is hard yes, but we sweat through it. Black team, I think I could train all day with them, between hearing mother fer and giggles from the married couple, i am pulling or pushing my body and weights watching the sweat drip off me with a smile! Last night we did crab crawls, wheelbarrows, sprints, and one team member had to piggyback our trainer. We all have our areas of strengths and weaknesses and we are pulling together nicely and supporting each other! What I am happy about most is now I have a total of 7 people to look for in the gym when I go, and I know that helps keep me accountable to the workouts I should be getting. I guys todays point is, exercise can be fun while grueling, and fun workouts make it seem like your having fun not exercising, and since I have kids it shows me things I can be doing to keep them healthy! I can't wait to see how much I get my ass handed to me tonight in Jason's bootcamp! I am partnering up with a black team member for the hell LOL! She is way funny, so hopefully I can have some laughs while trying to catch my breath!

I am BACK!!!

My poor forgotten blog, I am back!!! My topic choice today is choices!!! As I sat here Tuesday having a pity party for myself because I didn't get an interview for the VA's new grad program I told myself to get on here and blog yet I didn't. Anyhow my topic, choices! I don't have a choice in who gets an interview, how many people Sharp hires, if my husband has a bad day, if the President sends more troops to foreign lands. BUT I do have a choice in what I eat, how I cook my food, how hard I hit the gym. It is my choice to control this weight problem I have. No one else makes this choice! It is the ONE thing I do have control over in my life!!! If i plan accordingly my chooses can help me, but that is another I must do is choose to plan!

No Excuses!!!

As I said to a friend this week, your still overweight because you make too many excuses! Well guess what so do I! Me losing weight is more important than the fact someone made gyoza, or tried a new recipe out, or made a yummy cake. Not hitting the gym because once again I decided to procrastinate on my homework. This is the easiest time I am going to have from here on out to work out. When I finally get a nursing a job the hours will be killer! So I had already decided to give up eating out (my trainer said this includes potlucks) and I need to give up soda too, I always think well its diet...but still I am going to give it up, so hello crystal light! So very embarrassing today, our trainer had us weigh in, I gained weight, yet my other two team members lost :( I have read books, taking nutrition classes, saw a nutrionist, worked out with about 5 trainers now, why the heck can I not doing the simpliest math, calories in need to only be soooo much and calories out need to be so much. its pretty freaking simple so why can I not get it right? You know I am not losing weight just to be vain, although that is one of my main reasons. But I want to go back in the navy as an officer, i want to be faster in the races I sign up for, and i need to keep my heart healthy!

oh gym how its a love hate relationship!

I need to love you but like to hate you!!! But oh the gym is so good for me, it improves my moods and helps my figure and my heart!!! Off to the gym I will go tonight, with goals of running every morning at 530 to the stop sign and back (about 2 miles)! The ball is in THREE weeks!!!

YMCA Team Challenge!!!

So I have seen this team challenge thing a couple times at the Y, it runs for six weeks and costs $275. I have spent money and more money on trying to lose weight and get fit. So sometimes it gets old, but since my motivation is lacking I thought what the hell! so i did it. It started last week, our first weigh in was thursday! I lost 2.2 lbs which i thought was good because i was in the ER sat night and they thought i had the flu so i didnt work out sat, sun, or mon!!! so i am back to wearing my bodybugg and actually calculating my calories AND measuring my food!!!! Like literally measuring out the 1/4 cup creamer in put in my coffee! So heres to the next 6 weeks i hope to lose 15 lbs by May 1st, the challenge goes till April 29th. Oh and for those that don't know I am not able to train for the RNR SD marathon :( I don't have anyone to take my son to sat school so i can train with my group... boohoo I decided to wait till hubby is home on shore duty to try to train for a marathon!

so sad :(

I usually don't get too upset or emotional over people I don't know passing. I don't know if it is because my kids are getting older and it hits home or because I have ran those trails. When you hear someone goes missing you hope for the best and fear for the worst. Now my only regret is that I didn't go out with a search party to say I did my part. My heart breaks when I think of Chelsea King, which I am sure would have grown into a wonderful, successful woman but all was cut too short because some criminal couldn't keep his hands to himself. I can not imagine the pain and hurt that all her friends and family are going through right now and the new fear that each person has when they go on a run. Running is to improve oneself it is is too lose weight, make your heart healthier, or to compete against others and these sick, horrible rapist/murderers have to make it become a nightmare. My heart goes out to all those that knew Chelsea.